caramelcorretto: Maybe you could write about Elena’s speech, i.e. “worst choice she’ll ever make”? Because I didn’t like that :/
You would rather die than be human, and you expect me to be okay with that?
[ I didn’t say you were supposed to be okay with that. I just said that I’m not sorry, but you know what I really am? Selfish. Because I make bad choices that hurt you. Yes I’d rather die than be human, I’d rather die right now than spend a handful of years with you only to lose you when I’m too old and sick and miserable and you’re still you. I’d rather die right now than spend my last few years remembering how good I had it, and how happy I was because that’s who I am Elena and I’m not going to change, and there’s no apology in the world that encompasses all the reasons that I’m wrong for you.]
Fine. Then I’m not sorry either. I’m not sorry that I met you, I’m not sorry knowing you has made me question everything, that in death that you’re the one that made me feel most alive. You’ve been a terrible person, you’ve made all the wrong choices and of all the choices I have made this will be worst one, but I am not sorry that I’m in love with you.
I can already tell, every time I re-watch this speech, I’m going to get emotional. Ugh. Anyway…
When Elena says “of all the choices I have made this will be the worst one”, she’s not really saying that she’s going to live to regret loving Damon and that she’s making a mistake loving Damon.
The way I interpret this speech is that Elena isn’t oblivious to Damon’s flaws; she knows what a horrible person Damon is, and that’s a good thing. Damon Salvatore is a vampire. He’s not meant to be character of moral, and Elena seeing that now means that she accepts him for who he is, for who they are.
Damon says he makes bad choices that hurt her, which is where I think the “worst choice I’ll make” comes from. She knows that being with Damon things aren’t going to be perfect, that he’s an emotional person and reacts on that emotion and that will occasionally hurt her, but she’s accepting that.
She’s accepting that because she loves him.
(I really hope this makes sense)
Damon and Elena, as a couple, are perfectly imperfect.They are the opposite of what Stefan & Elena were : some kind of “fairytale”. They have pretended that things were ok when they were not at all. I won’t explain why but you know what I mean.
In 4x01, when Elena tells Stefan “no matter what happens, you’re the best choice I’ve ever made”, we could think that this is adorable, it is not. She’s dead because of that choice, she’s about to die again because she didn’t feed, and I think that she was just trying to convince herself again that everything was epic, and fairytale-like.
In 4x23, she’s more mature, she’s been through Hell and came back, with Damon always by her sides, no matter how many times she has rejected him. She perfectly knows Damon’s flaws, aknowledge them, he does it too, but she loves him no matter what, in the good and the bad times. She doesn’t pretend that everything is gonna be ok with him, because now she knows it’s not how life and love works, so she says this : “This will prove to be the worse choice but I’m not sorry that I’m in love with you”. She’s not afraid anymore. She’s not afraid of complications, of Hell because “in death you’re the one that made me feel most alive”. They bring each other to life.
They’ll go through Hell again, they know it and they don’t care because they are together now, stronger than ever. The fairytale can’t exist for them because what they have is real. It’s also passionate, dangerous and consuming, and this is what she has always wanted, before even knowing it, but he knew.
She’s now ready to embrace his fire, because she recognises the same in her heart.
“It’s been a rough few years for Damon when it comes to his love life — but Julie tells us it’s finally time for him to have some legitimate joy in his life. “Yes. Absolutely,” she says. “We’re going to get to see Damon trying to be a good boyfriend, and while it’s not going to be easy, he’s going to try like hell to make it work, and they’re going to have a real opportunity for happiness.” [X]
I think we all deserve a nice cup of tea and a blanket to process the fact that Damon and Happiness could actually happen in our lifetimes.