"What I'm about to say...is probably the most selfish thing I've ever said in my life. I just have to say it once. You just need to hear it. I LOVE YOU, ELENA. And it's because I love you, that I can't be selfish with you. Why you can't know this. I don't deserve you. But my brother does. God, I wish you didn't have to forget this. But you do."
I never said it out loud. I mean, what’s the point? It’s not gonna change anything. It’s not gonna make me good. Make me…adopt a puppy. I can’t be what other people want me to be. What she wants me to be. This is who I am.